Friday, July 4, 2008
Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down. . .
Few months ago, I've juz celebrated my 18th birthday, and it was really a memorable one. However, it was not entirely a "all-the-way-happy" process...somehow, there was a mix of anger, frustration, unhappiness and HAPPINESS in between(quite contradicting, right?). It all happened just a few days before my birthday, and I was so excited going round the class, trying to gather friends to have a BIRTHDAY STEAMBOAT with me. I wasn't sure if everyone was taking this matter to their hearts, but, I hope they do...
In fact, to be truthful, I had already been quite paranoid from the very beginning, whether they have seen me as a friend of theirs..cos, since I entered my secondary school life, I dun really have friends celebrating my birthday anymore. (*I don't think if they can even remember it, cos my birthday always fall on the mid-year exam) And, that feeling...was BAD!!! Terrible...): So when it comes again this year, I juz couldn't help it, but, simply feel that my world had once been darkened again. So, when the day finally arrived, I can't wait to enjoy the steamboat with all my friends!
But, somehow, I can only say that, it was disappointing...cos, most ppl doesn't seems to remember, or even, take it seriously...I was soooo heartbroken!!! I left quietly, intended to pretend nothing has happened, not wanting to celebrate my birthday ANYMORE...never ever...And, when jessie called up, trying to explain everything, my anger flared..I knew, perhaps, it was probably juz a small misunderstanding. But, my past experiences had really got me really hard on my mind, and, I juz couldn't forget about it...
Dear friends, I'm so sorry.
At that moment, I was really angry with all of them. And, never ever, did I expect them to have been really nice friends of mine! ^.^ On my actual birthday, They had everything planned, lying that my jap class had been pushed up half an hour earlier, and so I ended up being in school early..It was when we were taking the lift to the fifth storey, it stopped at the third..and guess what?! The rest of my friends have gathered in one straight line, holding on to 13 balloons, with each alphabet wrriten on it, wishing me..HAPPY BIRTHDAY! That day, WAs the happiest birthday I had ever received. It's true!!!(*Better than my boyfriend's..hahaha!) Not only that, the presents are very beautiful and nice. One multi-purpose necklance, 2 rings, one pair of earings and a small treasury box. I'll post the photos up next time round..
Having to go through one big round, it was really tedious and time-consuming..however, the memories were precious...and friends, I juz wanna say:
YOU GUYS ARE SO SWEET!!!
Few months ago, I've juz celebrated my 18th birthday, and it was really a memorable one. However, it was not entirely a "all-the-way-happy" process...somehow, there was a mix of anger, frustration, unhappiness and HAPPINESS in between(quite contradicting, right?). It all happened just a few days before my birthday, and I was so excited going round the class, trying to gather friends to have a BIRTHDAY STEAMBOAT with me. I wasn't sure if everyone was taking this matter to their hearts, but, I hope they do...
In fact, to be truthful, I had already been quite paranoid from the very beginning, whether they have seen me as a friend of theirs..cos, since I entered my secondary school life, I dun really have friends celebrating my birthday anymore. (*I don't think if they can even remember it, cos my birthday always fall on the mid-year exam) And, that feeling...was BAD!!! Terrible...): So when it comes again this year, I juz couldn't help it, but, simply feel that my world had once been darkened again. So, when the day finally arrived, I can't wait to enjoy the steamboat with all my friends!
But, somehow, I can only say that, it was disappointing...cos, most ppl doesn't seems to remember, or even, take it seriously...I was soooo heartbroken!!! I left quietly, intended to pretend nothing has happened, not wanting to celebrate my birthday ANYMORE...never ever...And, when jessie called up, trying to explain everything, my anger flared..I knew, perhaps, it was probably juz a small misunderstanding. But, my past experiences had really got me really hard on my mind, and, I juz couldn't forget about it...
Dear friends, I'm so sorry.
At that moment, I was really angry with all of them. And, never ever, did I expect them to have been really nice friends of mine! ^.^ On my actual birthday, They had everything planned, lying that my jap class had been pushed up half an hour earlier, and so I ended up being in school early..It was when we were taking the lift to the fifth storey, it stopped at the third..and guess what?! The rest of my friends have gathered in one straight line, holding on to 13 balloons, with each alphabet wrriten on it, wishing me..HAPPY BIRTHDAY! That day, WAs the happiest birthday I had ever received. It's true!!!(*Better than my boyfriend's..hahaha!) Not only that, the presents are very beautiful and nice. One multi-purpose necklance, 2 rings, one pair of earings and a small treasury box. I'll post the photos up next time round..
Having to go through one big round, it was really tedious and time-consuming..however, the memories were precious...and friends, I juz wanna say:
YOU GUYS ARE SO SWEET!!!
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:54 PM
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